Late evening the soles of my feet fall one
after the other along a narrow trail strewn with the needles and
protruding roots of nearby Douglas fir. Climbing steadily ever
since I began, this mountain, already billions of years old,
continues to exact a fee of anyone who wishes to tread here.
Seemingly oblivious to the effects of gravity, my Alaskan
Malamute prances up and down the trail ahead of me, pausing
momentarily where perhaps days ago some curious creature left no
trace, save footprints unseen. Curiosity fully inhaled, Tecumseh
dances on, big white underside of his tail wagging back and
forth high in the air like a flag of truce, naively warning
wildlife of our approach, sometimes miles in advance. I never
get any photos of wildlife when Tecumseh is with me. But I don't
mind, I love his company. And before the night is through that
huge white tail will save me from hypothermia. This trail continues to lead us by the
hand through unfamiliar forests and vistas of fir covered
mountain sides. We break into an opening and, like the
grizzlies did for thousands of years, cut through steep
sloping meadows. Daylight tarries with us to this point,
but will presently drift away to explore other realms
below the western curvature of the globe. Knowing this,
with footprints and hillsides to retrace, Tecumseh and I
must turn back.
I haven't seen a map, but I get a sense that this
trail may soon join the Porter Fork trail, which I am certain lies at
the foot of the mountain to our west. We drop into the drainage below
us, rugged and steep, but for a time open and clear. We descend until we
are swallowed by a wall of shrunken aspens, as thick and tangled as any
of the regions most contemptuous oak brush. What had started out as a
hike now becomes a fight, stubborn branches overlapping from opposite
directions, grabbing like the arms of hungry trolls. Out of character,
Tecumseh lags behind, wading through undergrowth deeper than his ears,
vaulting over debris. We find the chaos impenetrable and retreat to try
another angle. Forging forward I jerk to a stop, my right shin solidly
wedged front and back. I reposition my weight and deliberately lift my
leg out of the aspen bear trap. Again we attack, branch at a time;
progress too slow. One last time we retreat, flank to the right, the
light is expiring. The trolls win. Reluctantly we face a long climb back
to the trail, with shades of gray fading to shades of black.
We exit the gnarly aspens, the deceased
among them still tripping at my ankles and shins as if
anxious to pull me to their own fate. Once free from
their taunting, even the chest pounding incline of the
upper draw comes as a relief. The drainage narrows to a
ditch and briefly interrupts the trail which jumps
imperceptibly from one side to the other. With darkness
closing claustrophobically, only sharp use of my memory
finds the path that led us here. In the shadows we follow
a barely discernible outline, feeling well rewarded for
our return up the mountainside until we burrow into the
firs. Here the darkness is complete. If the open trail
was like closing the door and turning out the light, this
forest is like crawling under the covers. I usually
possess excellent night vision and have hiked extensively
after dark including treks through rugged and unfamiliar
forests, but never have I encountered a night as black as
this. I am blind. I see no forms, no outlines; nothing.
With all of our options expended, we must stop here.
We are trapped. But wait, there is just one thing I can see
tonight, even if barely perceptible, Tecumseh's tail!
When Tecumseh was a pup I had tried to
train him to stay behind me on the trail. I thought I
could help protect him from rattlesnakes, porcupines, dog
fights, and even from the possibility of being shot by
mistake for a coyote or a wolf. I soon realized, however,
that he didn't seem to enjoy himself unless he was free
to run out in front, beckoned there by the genes of
generations of sled dogs. And now here he is, several
feet in front of me, tail high in the air, nothing but
white showing on the backside, leading me through the
black like a seeing eye dog. How well he sees in this vat
of ink I know not, but surely his keen sense of smell
makes it easy for him to retrace our footsteps. Always so
anxious to please, I wonder if he basks proud in his
ability to help.
He settles into a quiet, even pace. For
miles I follow what luckily is an unobstructed trail,
unable to discern anything but a faint trace of white. At
last we reach the truck. Here I pull off my small pack
and find my quart of drinking water frozen to an icy
slush. Carrying no extra clothing, that white tail, like
a beacon to a wayward ship, saved me from a long cold
night. Nights like this I feel fortunate to leave nothing
behind... save a few tufts of Tecumseh's fur for some
otherwise very hungry trolls.
© 2002 A. J. Windless
First draft written and copyrighted in 1992
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